Scurrred.

im scared that i'm going to live my life always settling for 'good enough'. i give up too easily and i'm too much of a wimp to take risks. =/

Back on track

So I haven't really posted in here for a pretty long time and on this very lazy Saturday night i've decided to skim through my old posts again. It's amazing to think how much can change in such little time. It really amazes me at how a relationship between 2 people can completely change with time. anywhos, i think the reason i haven't wrote in the past few months is because i've been pretty emotional and conflicted with myself. There wasn't particularly anything wrong in my life but I just couldn't seem to be the overly happy person that I usually am.

That feeling has all gone away now and I feel like i'm finally back to my cheerful self :) Since the last time i posted i've started pledging for Alpha Phi Omega and i am totallyyy loving it. Not only do i love everyone i've met in the fraternity but all the fellowships and services have been ridiculously fun. Pledging for APO is probably in the top 3 best decisions ive made since I've moved to San Diego. :) Everyone in it cracks me upp and I seriously love my big, twin, and phi fam ♥ I'm sad that alot of the people i've met this year are already graduating in may though :[

speaking of may...my yearly trip to Japan is already being planned! this year i'll be gone from May 28 to June 16. Not gonna lie, i'm really not all that stoked. This is going to be my first time going to Japan since my grandma died. I don't know how i'm going to handle staying at my grandpa's and not having my grandma there...Especially since it never really sunk in that she passed away. i'm afraid its finally going to hit me when i get to the apartment and im going to start crying in front of my grandpa, which then, will probably make him cry! :( Oh how I wish my heart and tear ducts were stronger. since i dont want to leave on a sad note...i would just like to say

please find me a boy who will serenade this song to me :) okay that is all. thanks. bye <3